Wow. Seventeen days until Nellie and I leave for Namibia... It's like I knew the time would be coming but the feeling is still crazy.
Nellie and I both have a lot left to do. But God has provided SO faithfully. The more I proclaim my faith in Him, the more He shows Himself to be who He is.
The other day Jeff (our pastor/mentor/friend/all around awesome person) took a few of us up to Portland to meet with a woman that he has told us a lot about. She has been involved in Youth With A Mission for years and went through their teacher training system after she had already been through the university education system and had taught for a number of years. We had a great time just eating lunch and talking about our dreams and some practical education options for each of us. I was listening to everyone discuss their opinions of why the path they took or plan on taking works or doesn't work the best. I suddenly was overwhelmed with anxiety. I hadn't thought about the subject for quite a while. I made the decision to set all of those plans aside last fall... And ever since then I haven't had much stress about the subject. But while everyone was talking about why College was the key or was a potential waste of thousands and thousands of dollars.... I got overwhelmed. My chest tightened up and I started to get a headache. But the most amazing thing happened next. Before I had the chance to tell anyone how I was feeling or really verbally acknowledge it at all- God spoke to me. He brought to mind the scripture that had been in my head for the few days prior to the lunch. I would wake up and instantly say out loud "'For I know the plans I have for you,' says the Lord..."(Jeremiah 29:11). This is one of the scriptures that is used ALL THE TIME. But truth is truth is truth. And I choose to accept this scripture for myself. So anyway, He speaks to me suddenly and starts to say that scripture. But He stops really quickly. All He says is "For I KNOW...". And I just wanted to collapse and weep. The tightness in my chest loosened and I could breathe normally and I felt great. He reminded me that a big part of the awesomeness of that scripture is that He knows. It's not a question for Him of "What's the right thing to do?! Oh no! I might mess up!"... He's got this.
Sorry, I ramble. But God just does cool things, so I wanted to share them with whoever will read my blog.
I am so excited to see what God does in the next hour, 2 weeks, 5 months, 50 & 500 years. He's good. All the time.
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I love the way that you think & the way that you express yourself. It's amazing how often I need to remind myself of that very verse, it is for each of us and with just as much passion from God's heart. You're amazing for being bold & taking such a step of faith. It's obvious that your confidence is in the Lord and that you're aware that your Daddy wants to give you the desires of your heart. He will pour out blessing & favor for you wherever you place yourself. I can't wait to get my first e-mail from you sissy! I'm already missing you like crazy, knowing how many miles away you are makes it feel that much further. I'm so glad that I have been there and it's not just a big mystery of where you're spending your days. I'm praying for you & I can't wait to see the fruit that goes along with this investment :)
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